I don’t believe the irony.

I don’t believe it myself. How did circumstances bring this here! I thought I was in control, thought I knew I was going.. And yet.. in four years of married bliss, how did we reach here. Suddenly middle aged looks, living in 2 cities, crazy work schedules.. and a blank for anything else apart from body aches! What the fuck happened. I don’t even know what I want.. I say lets have kids even though she does not. Am I out of my mind! lets pay the rent, EMIs, plan travel itineraries get the paperwork done.. oh yeah attend that wedding and baptism here. then what. whats for dinner. is it really middle age? bloody HELL! yeah.. and the car needs servicing.