Ma new girlfriend

my new wife, bedfellow and lover
hmm. no masala here, it s just work!
no i am not working to forget, rather work is making me forget
so this new one is nice, she s there wheneever i want her
24 hours a day when i seek her
she looks different, sometimes looks like a lappie and otherwise a meeting
the prof, the diro or the team
it s been a while since someone has made me think
of nothing but her for hours on end
the more i spend on her, the more she wants
na, she aint satisfied that easy
i aint gonna be able to leave her
till september middle when she come out
hopefully in all her glory

i would normally never accept it, but since this is what cant be said
i say, i am a sentimentalist
i am foolish romantic
i am childishly fantastical in my fantasies
i am in a limbo now
going nowhere
i have been ere for years
i dont know if i want to be more serious, that is perhaps a bad idea for i am numbingly so
should i be more humorous, alas humor is not for all, and i have told i have a sad sense of it
i could be more light, yeah. light.
light, therefore i should drink more, dance more, get merry more
do everything that i am not stopped from doing
but who stops me but myself huh
what do i do about the sentimentalism part
or the romantic part
why dont i just be!
shit this random thought of nonsense